i feel sooo happy to know that so many people feel happy for me..
feel so much lurve from u all.. thanks sooo much!! =)
i was randomly thinking of stuff, and then, i wonder.. why is it everytime i must go ‘underground’ like must go underwraps that kind of thing.. hmmmsss… =/
i dont know why i’m feeling this way..
but it felt like we’d been together for quite some time..
and then, i dont know why i’m beginning to feel afraid..
afraid that he’d feel that i’m too ‘clingy’..
afraid of what would happen if this was all a dream and my dream ended abruptly and horribly..
afraid of losing him and having to stand up by myself again..
i know, i’m worrying for nothing now.. yeah.. worry so much for what right? guess the most important thing is to be happy and enjoy ourselves and treasure all those happy times right!
hais, and ah mi moy is another issue.. i know our family have quarrelled over him for many many many times, but, i’ve never even had the thought of giving him up, giving him away.. i know i do sometimes joke about giving him away to my friends, but i never do mean it.. it is really a responsibility afterall.. i wouldnt know if he’s happy living with us for this past few years.. but what if he’s given away and the people treat him even worse? wont that be fcukin unfair to him? arghs..
been goin for badminton session in school with the gang tis 2 weeks. lurve it! EXERCISE!! =)
muacks nana!
another name i hear people call
the other day i made ‘huat kway’ for them =P
i banged against a fire extinguisher and got this….
scandal 1
scandal 2
real couple
nana!
from mr toot =)
baked cookies for practical today. real biscuits!
(xi)
(nu)
(ai)
(le)
happy-ness and lurvesssss =)
with loads and loads and loads of lurve,
xxshulixx
i never knew the past could actually haunt us so badly. but, yeah, i’m still glad you let it go, at least for now…
230707 =)
i lurve, lurve, lurve this song
http://my-little-black-box.imeem.com/music/i3PgSrkW/suddenly/
忽然之间 天昏地暗
世界可能忽然什么都没有
我想起了你 再想到自己
我为什么总在非常脆弱的时候 怀念你
我明白 太放不开你的爱
太熟悉你的关怀 分不开
想你算是安慰还是悲哀 而现在
就算时针都停摆
就算生命像尘埃 分不开
我们也许反而更相信爱
如果这天地 最终都会消失
不想一路走来珍惜的回忆
没有你
today, it was learnt that…..
time heals all wounds….
today’s pain will be lesser than yesterday’s…
tomorrow’s pain will be lesser than today’s…
and eventually, the pain will all be gone…
its amazing how someone’s 25 min can change my point of view 360 degrees. thank you muchie.. your 25 min of counselling really saved me. really helped me alot. i thought i was able to go through it alone. but obviously not. i’m such a weakling. =( and guess i’d bug you for the rest of my life!! we’re bounded by blood ties! u cant try to shake me off! muahahhas! lurves! =)
nothing’s gonna get more sucky than all these now.
and i want to recover, i want to heal, i want to grow up, by myself.
it is gonna be soo fcuking difficult, but i will try..
computer is down and out. =(
it seriously sucks without computer. no entertainment….. >.<
sometimes i feel that, 旁观者清.. i can sometimes be sooo blind to not see that some things i do would actually hurt him and i needed people to point out to me before i realised. okies, i can be rather insensitive at times.. i’m really sorry that i did hurt him… truly. and am trying my best not to hurt anymore, unknowingly. am pretty glad that i finally dug up the deep old secrets that have been hidden from me for soooo long.. =) to be honest, initially i was quite taken aback by the reactions and was quite bothered by it. but after knowing the reasons, i guess i shouldnt feel that way and am actually quite happy to hear all that. hahas.. =P
sometimes, i do feel quite out of league from some of my friends. its true.. it was always in me but i never wanted to face it. i just wanted to treasure what i have with them, but guess, maybe it doesnt really make a difference with or without me.. =(
ps: i’m actually thinking of joining sp’s singing contest. just feel like trying it out. have till monday to decide.. should i??? =/
with loads and loads and loads of lurve,
xxshulixx
nice to play the next time u’re at cineleisure and have nothing better to do. its only 2 bucks per game and can play damned long. have to pay 5 bucks for deposit of the darts but will be fully redeemable after u’re done playing. its good for venting anger. =)
we had our second attempt on the pralines and thankfully, it was better than the other time. =)
lurves =)
made noodles for practical the other day. fun! =)
‘traumatised’ by ah mi moy
finger lickin’ good
with loads and loads and loads of lurve,
xxshulixx
