goin to be a nun??

time for pics!!

the other day, we finally began workin on our FYP..

 

we didnt really succeed in making the pralines but we’ll JIAYOU!! =)

i think the colours are damn cool.. blue!! i lurve!!! =)

met up with dwarfies today.. we had a talk and… i might be a nun soon if i ever got hurt again?? hahas.. well, many ‘thanks’ to asshole for instilling that fear in me huh… arghs… *rolls eyes*  >.<

ps: dwarfies, please do take good care of urselves.. and sorry i didnt wana go with u all.. i really hope u all would understand.. and not going doesnt mean i dont lurve u all.. pls understand okies… please? 

with loads and loads and loads of lurve,

xxshulixx

answered.

after many many many many months of living in many many many many question marks…..

i finally gotten the answer today….

=)

with loads and loads and loads of lurve,

xxshulixx

bottled up.

call me a coward, call me hum ji..

if i could, i would really rather escape from it..

honestly, i dont think i’m expecting anything in return.. it was never even meant to be known anyway..

i just dont want to get hurt and thats all..

with loads and loads and loads of lurve,

xxshulixx

hais.

i cant believe i just said it. and i quite feel like shit now. someone please help me………

update-ed.

been going out almost every day this week and its burning holes in my very poor pocket.. =(

met up to celebrate debbie’s birthday the other day..

after that we proceeded to pool-ing

then went k-pub with dwarfies on friday.

i’m sorry for whatever happened.. really.. to everyone of you..

went to watch fantastic 4 on saturday. initially was still feeling quite lousy but luckily i felt better after some time.. and blah blah blah..

after that, we fed the cats below my block and he spent freakin long taking these photos..

okies, and a few more but they’re not cute enough. =X

ps: as of 23/6/07, i promise to abstain from drinking alcoholic drinks. never ever.

i should stop troubling people and making them worried.

tomorrow is…………………..

THE BEGINNING OF SCHOOL AGAIN.

>.<

with loads and loads and loads of love,

xxshulixx

still here.

met up with dwarfies yesterday. spent my whole day with them. really hope you’ll feel better soon ok.. and i’d have to apologise for my mini ‘blow-up’ on the phone. was really in a foul mood. >.<

i really didnt want to go home this few days. i dont know why. after we left pauline’s house, i didnt know where to go, i decided to sit at the playground for time to pass while i listen to songs. sitting there, thinking, emo-in, crying and messaging, time flew past and i bet you all couldnt believe it. i just say there alone till about 1230am, about an hour. i had actually planned to stay longer. but guess who the fcuk i saw. THAT SAME PSYCHOTIC FACE GUY aka hyena, the one who freaked me out the night before. i was really really fcuking scared now since i was totally alone and there was no one else except 1 or 2 uncles sitting at the already closed coffee shop, drinking their beer. =/ luckily that hyena didnt follow. if not, i’d be like sooo dead. i know it is very dangerous. but i really didnt want to go home and sitting there with the wind blowing and the peace, it is very very shiok seriously.

 

anyway, i met up with primary school buddies today. =)  went to town and then to bugis. and i went shopping again! =P

~we took neoprints at this machine which only accepts japanese yen

 

~holy water from hong kong cafe which cost 40cents each.

~my dinner

~the mirror in toilets of cine is seriously not very user friendly for shorties like me. can only see the top of my head. what for?!! =(

~rachel and me

~neoprintsss =)

~new clothes. =)

yes, i’ve always felt inferior to people around. to the point that when people are nice to me, i’d wonder is it because they pity me. 我不需要任何 同情!!!

with loads and loads and loads of love,

xxshulixx

sucks.

it fcukin hurts so much to know that someone you trust soooo much doubts your character again, again and AGAIN. it fcuking hurts, seriously…

i didnt know i was really such an awful person in everyone’s eyes….

i dont wish to shed any more tears….

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met.

met up with dwarfies just now. had loooooong talk and then we laughed over the fugly times during sec school. oh my god. so fcukin throw face loh!! arghs.

okies, then pauline and i were fcuking freaked out by this malay guy at our house area. while we were about to cross the road to walk home, he was ahead of us, then he kept turning back to look at us. he had that very fcuking psychotic face lah! and then we decided to wait a few more turns of traffic light before we crossed but he kept turning back and walk very very slowly. ta ma de. really scared the shits out of me, i was even considering calling the police. =X

but luckily, we waited long enough and he disappeared to dont know where. we continued walking with me holding out my keys as a source of weapon. (i think i should start bringing penknives around with me) and then thankfully, pauline’s father came down to pick her up and they both waited till i was in the lift. ta ma de. i think i get paranoid like damned easy now.

>.<

today’s father’s day. i suddenly felt very weird. cus over this few years, i never knew when is father’s day and when is mother’s day. but today, it was like everyone is going to celebrate it eg my er jie with in-laws, pauline and family, shiyuen and family and then the whole atmosphere is like quite different from other days, like shops closing earlier or less people dining out or something.. and i dont know, i just felt weird. like something missing.. guess i’ve never really officially celebrated this 2 occasions.. tell me how it feels? =/

wery wery random`

went to bai bai today with sisters, jie fu and nana. good thing is that we didnt quarrell!! hahas.. one of the few times that we go bai bai altogether and never quarrell at all. lols.. =P

feeling sooo random now.. suddenly feel like learning to ride bicycle. ehs! i know very malu lah.. 18 years still dont know how to. this few days got nothing to do, i keep feeling i’ve lived in this world for nothing. everything also scared, everything also dont know.. =(

 i’m glad problems always gets resolved in the end.. hahas! =)

with loads and loads and loads of love,

xxshulixx